I Feel....

I feel like I am alone in this world. It all started when my parents decided to get a divorce. I lost my dad because he didn't want to grow up. I lost my younger brother because he wanted to act like my dad and not grow up. Also I lost my younger sister. I really don't know why I lost her. Oh wait now I remember she moved in with my sister that I don't get along with. So she don't call or stop by like she used to do. They all clam to love me but I don't ever hear from them. What kind of family does that? My family does that. I lost my cousin because she got mad at me for not watching her kids when she wanted me to watch them. I don't get to see my mom or my other brother because they live to far.



Don't get me wrong I have my sister in law and mother in law and my husband's family. But it is not the same. I love them all but I need my family also. What did I do for my family to treat me the way they do? I am only one person and I can only take so much. I don't know how much more of this I can take. It is eating me up inside that I don't have my family here for me when I need them the most. I am to the point in my life I don't want anything to do with anybody or anything. NO I AM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING TO HURT MYSELF OR ANYBODY ELSE. I am done trying to please everyone. I can't do it anymore. I am going to live my life the way I want. I don't care what anybody has to say about it. If you don't like it oh well it is my life. AND I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. But thank you for caring.