Update

Well just an update on the hole finding my real dad thing. My cousin stopped by lastnight and I was telling him that I was looking for him. He said why would you want to find him for? So he tried helping me out so he called one of his friends and see if he had talked to him. The guy said he hasn't heard from him since last summer. He went on telling me that I don't want to find him.

So I called my mom and told her what was going on. She told me that she wanted to be the first one to talk to him before I do. She told me that the reason she lefted him because he was no good. So once again I don't know what the hell to do. I have a right to know who my real dad is don't I? But I don't want him comming in my life if all he is going to do is hurt me. And if my cousin and mom is right I don't think I want to find him anymore. Hell I don't even know if he knew that I changed my name when I was in the 5th grade.